The New Year hardly feels new anymore. Show of hands – who made resolutions? Who kept them? Who didn’t bother altogether? (*raises hand) I’m sure with a little digging, I could find statistics on increase in gym memberships, weight loss programs, sales of athletic apparel, etc etc. I’m sure those industries get a massive spike in January. I wonder how many people sign up for things and never actually attend. Confession: one year I bought some workout clothes and the tags were left ON UNTIL THE NEXT DECEMBER. Eventually the guilt faded away and it just made me laugh. Good intentions, but no delivery. Then I wonder why I’m still carrying around “baby weight” and my “baby” is now a second grader….but I digress.
I think about that a lot. I hype myself up and say “okay – here I go, I want to do this new thing!” or “okay I’m going to do better at ______” or “new year, new goal!” Everybody does – and many of us abandon or neglect it at some point. We strive and push and achieve, and make our kids strive, push, and achieve to reach the goal. Attain the dream.
What IS our dream anyway? What do we dream of doing and achieving? But do I even have a dream? What is it? As a parent, we often put our dreams aside for our kids and family. But what….if I was honest….is my heart’s deep down desire and how can I accomplish it?
I’ve thought about this a lot. As my kids get older, I dream about who they will become. Who will they marry? What will they do as a profession? What are their passions? Will they walk with the Lord? Will it be joyful? Will they have struggle? Even this week, I wondered how I can help Sam stay focused and attentive and how I can help Ellie navigate tough friendships – as they get bigger, their problems get bigger. Dreams seem harder to achieve.
So many hopes…dreams…worries. The truth is, God calls us to trust him. All our hopes and dreams?….He knows about them. All of them. Right now he’s working out all the details of a perfect plan…He knows the desires of our heart. He calls us to do things, to take actions – and all of the rest?…..it’s in His hands. We do not need to worry, (I know – easier said than done), we don’t need to panic, we just give it to the Lord. And as a wise friend once very simply said, “Give it to Jesus then pray like crazy.”
1 Corinthians 3:6 –
I planted the seed, Apollos watered it,
but God has been making it grow